Awww, isn't that sweet? Someone wrote a book about me.
One of the main sources of pressure comes from my family. Now my family has always been supportive and helpful throughout my entire life but there are a lot of expectations that come from them. We have always been middle to upper-middle class so fairly well off. Plus all my relatives have been successful.
Let's take a look at some people from the previous generation shall we:
- Night shift ER nurse.
- Engineer who had a hand in 5-star hotels in Hong Kong and the Hong Kong airport.
- Successful Chinese Supermarket before selling it to retire early.
- Researcher before starting a family.
- Supervisor at major electrical company.
Alright, fine, those are my elders so to speak, well let's take a look at my cousins:
- Engineer with a Masters in Business.
So many Engineers...
So I'm the next one to show them what I got. And to make things better, I'm the eldest sibling in my family. I need to set a good example for my younger brother and sister too. And the pressure is really on not to fuck up. I mean, it wouldn't be that hard to get a job anywhere but it needs to be on the level that everyone else has already set. That kind of prestige. I don't want to be known as the first failure or that-cousin/nephew/grandson-who-wasn't-successful or something, can't soil the Wei family name.
So what can I do? My marks aren't terrible but they're not amazing (I'm hovering at around a 3.0 GPA), my job experience are meh at best, and I don't have much of a direction as of where to go. There was a time at which I wanted to become a doctor, but recently I've begun to reconsider (for reasons other than my GPA being way too low) but I'll discuss that in another blog post.