I really have no motivation left to study though.
I mean I'll still do it but the energy and the drive that I used to have it just gone. I get distracted way too easily, I don't feel like I care anymore. I just want this to be done with so I can get back to doing something else.
But there really isn't anything else for me besides studying. I don't have a job lined up like some other people and in this economy, it's unlikely I can find one without going for more school. And if I want to continue studying, I need to keep my grades up.
It's kind of sad, studying is all I've known and I'm just sick of it.
So it's back to forcing myself to my textbooks and papers. I don't know how many more years of school I'd need to do, I'm really not looking forward to this.
It's slightly ironic because we were looking at this exact phenomenon in the class I'm studying for. I'm not the only one stuck in this loop of trying to get more education in hopes of grabbing ANY job once we're done.
I mean I have a friend who graduated with an honors degree and is struggling to grab a job as a sales associate.
And I only have a specialization degree.
So back to studying I guess. I haven't been feeling mentally well lately and I guess it shows.